Inconsistencies

Yeah my blogging isn't very consistent. I feel like I'm on here less and less. Even though that would seem like a lie. I think I'm used to long periods of nothing as opposed to the constant barraging of assessments that uni likes to throw at us, my fellow industrial design kids understand.

Anyway I'm just posting for the sake of it. So can't be bothered writing some epic thing right now. But I will post a pic of my new (ish) desktop :)

 

My world geography is still fail...

*j

the little whirlwinds of emotion i feel when thinking of you..

HI BLOGGER!

Feels like ages since I've blogged properly i.e. long essay of a post. I think last Tuesday, not last week but the week before was my last essay. Though I did have a bit of a rant post on the 13th. 

Anyway I am currently taking a break from my engineering drawing homework. I still need to draw in ALL the dimensions. I've been on break for what seems to be approaching an hour and a bit. But oh well, my blog needs updating. I am currently trying to decide if I should go grab a midnight snack right now. What's on the menu? Champorado! A sweet chocolate rice porridge, which I also had for breakfast. Okay just saying that made me want some! Haha. Choice made I guess, will grab some when I finish this post and eat it while finishing my homework.

Uni has been interesting thus far, week 4. I swear for some classes we NEVER do the same thing. Makes me not know what to think of it. Although I guess I like the variety. Except for when we get a surprise sketching assessment in workshop today worth 30%! Freaking hell. Had 3.5 hours to do all these conceptual perspective drawings. I swear I don't like drawing curvy things in perspective. Bloody organic forms are SO HARD!  Luckily everyone else we having trouble and because by the end of class no one had really finished properly, our awesome tutor Nick said we could hand it in next week! I was so happy when he told us. Sketching has never been so stressful and frustrating. EVER. And now I get to work on it AFTER my homework for tomorrow. AFTER my homework for Friday and AFTER I finish my assignment due on Monday which might I add is another 30%. So busy these days. Though could be because I spend TOO much time procrastinating on the computer..

*Okay I have a feeling I will be typing up this post for a bit longer and will go and get my champorado NOW.*

And now I am back with my food! And a little disappointed. The rice has kind of been all mushed and with the milk I added it is now at the consistency of paste, though a little lumpier. If you are one of those kids who used to eat the paste in primary school, you would probably love this. It's like chocolate flavoured paste! Though the texture is  little off it still taste fairly decent. 

Well continuing on with my post... OMG it's been 2 hours since I went on break. My work is waiting for me on my desk. I hope it doesn't feel like I've blown it off. Poor homework. Must be hard when the vast majority of people hate you, or at least dislike you. Having people put you off for facebook and blogging... Haha. 

Never cease to amaze myself with how random I am.

Also today in workshop while doing my work I realised just how much I talk to myself, and quite loudly at that. I think it is worse when I have to concentrate and am a little confused and stressed, as I was during tat assessment. Everyone else being quiet sure made it more obvious too. But oh well! Everyone seemed to react to it fine and I just warned them of me talking more with the deadline quickly approaching.

Yeah... I actually had heaps to blog about but I need to finish my homework. Maybe tomorrow I will blog again to help make up for my lack of essay posting.

*j

My new photography project blog

Okay so in the previous post I mentioned a new temporary photography project. Well I ended up making a tumblr for it here. It is called Photos at Dusk. The first post is a little intro thing and yeah. Please visit and all. 

*j

Photos at dusk

I have a NEW idea for a photography project to preoccupy me while I wait till i can restart my old project on my birthday (Lomo still needs fixing).

So pretty much my idea is called something along the lines of Photos at Dusk. Or something more poetic or less lame sounding.. Suggestions? But pretty much I have of late (yesterday and today, though there have been previous occasions prior) been taking pictures at dusk from my backyard because the sky always looks cool and colourful. 

SO what I plan to do is just do a compilation of photos taken at dusk, everyday. I don't know if I should post the photos up on a new blogger or tumblr blog. Probably tumblr but I don't know how that works with multiple blogs. But I do have one photo up from yesterday on my tumblr which I guess I will reblog into my new one. 

Each entry will just be dated and any comments I feel necessary to add.

Yeah, I wonder how long I can keep this up for...

That's all.

*j

Checklist

• Visit the doctor. CHECK
• Flu vaccination. CHECK
• Kate's for some music making. CHECK
• Mum's birthday dinner. CHECK
• Get over you. IN PROGRESS

*j

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Sad it's over.

Sorry to let you go.

Fond of the time we've spent.

Thankful for all you've given.

 Wish you all the best for the future.

♥

You will always hold a place in my heart.

*j

Poke her face!

This is probably the closest I will EVER get to liking Lady GayGay...



Enjoy!

*j

Breakdown

I feel terrible. No I'm not sick just emotionally shaken. Why?! I don't feel like sharing the details.

But this mood I'm in has been transferred overnight. That in itself is worrying, "nothing a good night's sleep won't fix" - apparently not. Though the saying has always worked for me in the past. Just not now, something I never thought would happen to me, to touch my pretty, sheltered life. The shield has been shattered. Released into life only to be caught in life's cruel cage to be poked and prodded.. 

"Naive and protected", you got that right sir who I sat next to one seminar and who's name I don't remember. I now understand what you mean. Not the intellectual agreement which I gave you that day. No this is an emotional response speaking from experience.

I need to get out of here, away from the source of my pain. But where? And how? I can't leave, there is too much left to be done. Why strike now that there are things to be done. Why not strike back during my days of freedom when escape would have been easy. But no, life is not that kind.

I can only escape to my dreams, which I can not rely on to be there when i need them. Hopefully they will sooth me tonight for tomorrow awaits with the cruelty of the world ready to welcome me back..

*j

time must die!

Yeah, killing time in the library once again... bludging seems less fun now that the guilt of not doing my assignments is plaguing my conscience.

So now I am bored doing nothing and an empty space in my stomach seems to grow more and more evident as the minutes go by. I don't think I'm actually hungry-hungry, just bored-hungry. You know the feeling when you are bored and as a solution to you're boredom your body decides that you are 'hungry' and then you just eat to pass the time as opposed to just sitting around. So I think that's me right now, bored-hungry. Maybe, it is approaching what would be my usual afternoon snack time. That's a lie, I don't have a usual afternoon snack time, just continuous snacking on whatever I can find round the house. 

Now that I have established my bored-hungry state, I should point out the fact that I really shouldn't be bored at all. I now have a total of THREE assignments due and will probably be getting a new one tomorrow. Thing is with Industrial design, you don't have exams so you just do a lot of assignments what are worth a LOT. For example, I have a design critique assignment due next Tuesday worth 25%, I have another due two weeks from that which is worth 20% and another due on a Friday two weeks after that worth 50% of that class, though that 50% counting to about 30% of that course (you do the math, I can't). So I have much work to do but I am TOO lazy and NOT bothered even to work on the assignment due next week. I did earlier today spend FOUR hours in a tutorial just working on it (well we were supposed to be working in it). And now I'm kind of bored of that assignment. I need to do some sketches for it too but I have no paper to do so, really I'm just finding reasons not to do it.

Also today I kind of had lunch with Geraldine, her new friend Katherine was it? and Tee. I say 'kind of' because Geraldine and Katherine finished half an hour before me and already ate lunch and had a tutorial starting an hour after I finished so i just cought them just finishing and sat down to eat. And Tee finished the same time I finished and started eating with us but then we had to go because we wanted to check out a sale down at Cotton On downstairs so we left Tee by herself. So down to Cotton On we go. There was a 'EVERYTHING-is-only-FIVE-dollars sale! So I now have new clothes! A cardigan, 2 tops and a NEW scarf for $20. YAY for cheap clothing. Maybe I'll go back for more later in the week if the sale is still. And more on the scarf, I got a new one because my OTHER new one I got two weeks ago went MISSING! I think I've only worn it once too!! Which is SO crap! I don't even know where It would have gone. It made me sad, even though it was only $3 or $5, I don't quite remember. I might have lost it at uni during O-Week, I remember wearing it on O-Day when I enrolled. Either that or I wore it to my Landmark workday on the Saturday after and lost it somewhere there. But I'm still sad, I liked that scarf. I REALLY need to learn how to keep track of and take good care of my things. I have no idea how many other pieces of clothing I have lost, like other scarves (I seem to lose these heaps) and I remember losing a cardigan and I'm sure plenty more.

Well maybe I should take a break. Go walk on down to the tower and ask at the Student Help Desk where I might be able to stash a guitar. Maybe even talk to the Student Association about starting a club and things because there is NOTHING on their site which is of any use. For those not in the know, which should be a LOT of you blog reading people. That's right I'm talking to YOU. Anyway continuing.. I want to start a club/society where musicians such as myself can just meet up and jam with other musicians. As it stands the uni only has one music society I know of, MuscUTS (I think that's it.. can't be bothered researching it), which consists of a choir, orchestra and jazz band. This is all good if you like that sort of thing, organised meetings with a conductor in charge and not a great amount of say over the music. But for me I like sitting around with people and just jamming. Like we used to back at school in music. I REALLY miss my music class, favourite class ever! I think I am just trying to find the same sort of space here at uni where people can just get together and share music. It is quite fun. I don't even play my piano all that often anymore, or play my guitar or sing (I mean just at home by myself or whatever), it's weird and I miss it. Also Derek and I have been thinking about just jamming together, hence the asking-the-student-help-desk-where-I-can-stash-a-guitarness. We've already established Angus and Julia Stone to be on our repertoire. Now he is on board in helping me get this club thing going. I think it's exciting! We just need to meet and recruit more people. So anyone out there from UTS who play an instrument and want to jam with us, please let me know! Leave a comment! And if you know someone at UTS who plays and instrument and may want to jam with us, please let me know! Leave a comment! And if you are just interested with what we are planning and want to get involved, even if you don't, please let me know! Leave a comment!

I just realised that each paragraph in this post is longer than the last. A trend which I think will stop at this post. Yeah, just an observation. ALSO the guy sitting next to me on the computers was listening to John Mayer - Slow dancing in a Burning Room off youtube (I feel stalkerish). JOHN MAYER!! MAY 8!! I'M STILL SUPER PUMPED AND EXCITED!! I walked past the entertainment centre on my way to Landmark yesterday and got excited! Haha. I CAN'T WAIT! Maybe I should listen to some John Mayer myself, I have some of his music on my phone. And I think I will. *listening to Stop this Train*.

I thinkI've had a long enough break typing all this up. I should do something productive; work on an assignment, get some food, go ask where I can stash a guitar.. I think I should get a gym membership and spend my time exercising. OR I can just exercise by roaming round the city. That works, just take my phone and wallet and maybe my water and look around and find some cool places.

Yeah I think I should go, I've been sitting here at t he computer for.. *goes to check*  2 hours. This post also seems to be long enough. So I shall go and get outside.

Till the next time I need to kill heaps of time by myself,

*j

Hello Blake

Yes, I am yet again sitting in UTS Blake Library. HOORAH!

Anyway, what's with libraries having names? Like Fisher Library down at USyd or even Max Webber Library at Blacktown. Why didn't our high school library have a name? Is there a protocall for naming libraries? I really am curious (okay not THAT curious but curious enough to blog about it as to avoid doing my assignment - PROCRASTINATION!). I think Penrith High library should have a name other than just Penrith High School Library because that's just lame, well not so much lame but so ordinary sounding. Yeah I don't know...

It's funny looking around the library and seeing the amount of people around on the computers on facebook. It's not like a MASSIVE amount of people but enough for it to amuse me, seeing people not doing work (like me!).

I've also been browsing through MLIA again. Unfortunately I havent really seen many noteworthy post on it, it's disappointing. Maybe it.. okay I just flicked to another tab and back and now have no idea where I was going with that sentence. Well at least it is an interesting read, good to pass the time and just so you know today's average word is 'layout'.

And I can't be bothered typing more, maybe I should just do my assignment.

*j

OMG I FORGOT!

To add to my other post yesterday but I have the most TERRIBLE news!

My Diana Mini is BROKEN!! 

Like OMG!!!

I think it got squished or something in my bag because the shutter trigger SNAPPED OFF! I think it was like hanging on by the smallest bit of plastic then I tried taking a picture on Monday and it fell off right into my hand. 

So I suppose I won't be able to finish my 365 photographs, photography project thing. Which is sad. I CAN start again on my birthday and name it 19 because it will be a picture everyday of when I was nineteen which I also think is cool. I shall make a post reinstating the rules and stuff for this or anything new before my birthday, I have four months to plan this and stock up on film! I guess the good thing about not being able to use my camera and having postponed my project is that I'm in no hurry to buy more film anymore. Although I do feel like stocking up and just splurging on like 20 rolls of film. Maybe I should buy bulk off ebay..

So yeah, my camera is broke but it's nothing to worry about too much. I walked down to the photography labs yesterday and talked to someone down there. It shouldn't be too much of a problem. Luckily it is just an analogue camera so its all mechanical. All I really need to do is glue it back on and it should be fine. Just need to find the right glue. Should go down there again and ask about it but I'm in no rush because I'm postponing my photography project anyway. Although I do miss just taking it out for a snap at something random. Maybe I should just bring my digital and make sure that I always have spare batteries with me. Although it doesn't have the same effect.

Anyway, just sharing on my temporary loss. I should get back to sleep.

*j

becoming a common occurance

Well I am here once again in Blake Library (i.e. UTS Library), killing time and waiting for my brother to finish class. I think I will be blogging more these days, especially after finding that spending time on the net at the library is the best way to pass the time when you're by yourself. 

It is a bit of a walk from the main UTS building (including mine) but I guess that can be part of my daily exercise as well as climbing up 3 sets of stairs everyday to get to my classes (most of my classes) and at least 2 sets of stairs to get to my locker. So i shall be expecting to be getting fit this semester!

So yeah, I kind of don't know what to say now. Just blogging and on facebook and tumblr. The usual. I am planning and going up to find my textbook for tomorrow in the library because I don't have the money to buy one, yet. OR I can organise with SOMEONE in one of the other classes (preferably the one before me) if they want to lend me their textbook during my class and just give it back after. I don't know. I just don't want to buy a $100 textbook which I am only going to use for three and a half months! Also on a side note, because industrail design like most if not all design courses is practical based and doesn'e have exams, according to one of the instructors, design students get about half the year off in holidays! But this also means we get stressed more and sleep less than everyone else because our semesters are jam packed with assessments. Speaking of which I have my first in class assessment is NEXT WEEK! It's a little drawing task although there is a 50-50 chance that it won't be our class doing it but still! Thats so early in the semester.

And has anyone else realised (talking to new first years here) that at uni how much everyone promotes partying and drining and all that? Because seriously there is a lack of censoring of anything and I find it awfully refreshing. Some people do take the drinking and partying to heart and first week back to uni people are already hitting the bars and drinking a tad too much. For example yesterday afternoon no later than 5pm there are a bunch of kids in the Glasshouse (one of UTS's bars) all a little tipsy jumping around and singing at the top of thier lungs to whatever song was put on. Lots of shouting and cheering, quite a roudy bunch.

Oh and apparently Industrail Design and Architecture are somewhat enemies. Architecture is the 'dark side' as my tutor today pointed out a few times early this morning., there is a lot of "tension" between the two So to you architecture students... *cough* Shuang *cough* Chrishani. Well that's how it is at UTS anyway.

And I will stop now and go look for my textbook in the library before they're all gone!

*j

This is new

OMG guess where I am?! I'm at UNI! Yep that's right I am currently on the computer in the UTS library typing away on blogger to kill some time before my Landmark seminar tonight at 7.

So.. First day of uni! And yeah a bit of an anticlimax I must say. Oh well. I did just have a one hour lecture and then had to fill out a pink sheet of paper and answer a question involving a graph, countries including Europe and the demographics of smokers. Yeah my fellow UTS people might know what I'm talking about.

Great weather for the first day of uni. Cloudy, overcast and with random showers stopping and starting at the most inconvenient times, namely when needing to walk out in the open. Can't belive I don't have an unbrella today, I normally have one in my bag. At least I have a jacket with a hoodie, also good for the cold, it's kind of chilly outside. Hopefully it won't be raining too much for the rest of the week. Actually you know what I'm going to check the bureau right now for tomorrow's forecast. *Checking*

Forecast for Tuesday  
A shower or two. Cloudy. Light to moderate east to southeast winds.
City: Min:  18 Max:  23

So it's raining tomorrow too. Great. I shall remember to bring an umbrella this time. Don't get me wrong I do like the rain. I just like it a little less when I have to walk around in it without any waterproof protection. Sitting in a class with damp jeans isn't too comfortable esp. when its warm inside. Also a downside to rain, here in the city you don't get that nice rain smell, or the rain on grass smell. Mostly because there is no grass around here (esp. round UTS since they're digging up our lawn!). No here in the city its just wet. Note of advice don't stand by the curb if you need to cross the road. Chances are that when something drives past, you will get wet!

Anyway, I'm a little bored. Time seems to fly a LOT faster when you are with other people. Right now I'm just blogging(obviously), on web messenger chatting to my brother (he has a day of fand is home), Tumblr and on Facebook.. Nothing too exciting. Though I must say that these keyboards are loud. So I feel ever so slightly awkward typing away on my blog. Feel so public and I am not accustomed to blogging with people around. Maybe something I will have to get used to, I have quite a few Landmark seminars and such after uni and I normally finish around 1pm so I will have heaps of time to kill. May get accustomed to blogging before my seminars, at least my blog will get updated somewhat regularly.

I'm hungry. Well not so much hungry, but I want to eat something. Just want to taste something in my mouth. And talking about it with my brother is actually making me a little hungry now. Want something savoury. I so should have brought one of those instant noodle cups today. They are just sitting on my desk and I didnt get to pack any lunch. Maybe drop buy Breadtop or Barby's on my way to Darling Harbour.

I don't know how much longer I can drag out this post. It's getting kind of long.. I wish I brought my data cable with me (was actually thinking about it yesterday) so that I can upload a picture of the library from my phone. I shall do that next time. I really was unprepared for today. Not so much for my classes, I had all my stuff for my classes, speaking of which I need a textbook for thursday. I should pack some lunch earlier for uni. Should find out where I can find a microwave too, so i can bring rice and leftovers from dinner and stuff.

And I think I shall stop there. I need to find some food, make a phone call, eat and get to landmark.

So farewell from the UTS library!

*j

Edit: Here are some photos, or one.

 Sitting at the computer. Blogging. Diary out. For some reason I don't think that's my bottle..